Part 1
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THE FIRST TIME

by Marlissa

Kate heard the bell ring from downstairs and dashed to the mirror. The reflected image betrayed no flaws. The lipstick was red and thickly applied, giving the pouting lips a playful glow. The green eyes were right too-- the dark eyebrows thinly plucked, the long lashes batting with plenty of body and dark promise, the eyes themselves clear, bright and green as polished emeralds. No eyeshadow though-- the Teacher thought that eyeshadow on Kate gave a too-mature look and Kate was only sixteen. Cheeks were smooth, with a complexion that was clear but for the inevitable freckles of an Irish redhead. Delicate fingers dabbed tempting perfume on pulse points and behind pink earlobes as the face observed itself. Kate drew back the healthy mane of thick auburn hair into a manageable ponytail, the practised hands smoothing down the errant tresses into the big bowed red ribbon.

Too girlish? Kate wondered, then left the bow in place. Teacher liked the girlish look and Kate always strove to make the Teacher happy. It was the only way to get by from day to day. The sight check continued as Kate inspected the skimpy garments that clothed the small, lithe teenaged body. They weren't as sleazy as what Kate might be made to wear, that what for sure. The others had to wear such slutty things-- crotchless panties, garter belts, fishnet stockings and open-nippled brassieres.

Maybe I ought to be grateful, thought Kate. What looked back in the full-length mirror wasn't too slutty. Just a matching bra and panty set, pretty bright blue. And they weren't silk or anything-- just Hanes For Her. The panties were French-cut and rested high on the hips, clinging tightly to Kate's curvy tight midsection and butt-- simple and perfectly appropriate for a girl of sixteen. And the bra wasn't some bullet contraption. Not that Kate could fill that out, with an embarrassingly small set of 32A breasts. No, the bra was just a soft blue cotton thing without wiring or teasing lifts. All it did was cover the small pert things and give them a little definition and the smallest shapely lift. All in all, Kate looked just like any average-to- cute looking high school girl in her undies. No cheerleader, but not desperate for a boyfriend either. And certainly not some streetwalker. No, there was nothing unusual with what stared back in the mirror, was there?

There was if the starer was really a boy, Kate thought bitterly. The little cock thrummed in the chastity belt defiantly, if impotently. But the crafty construction of the Teacher's equipment refused to let the small cock out of its imprisonment. No surprise-- it hadn't for eight months, ever since it had been locked on. Kate sighed, then banished the taboo thoughts. The Teacher had once explained to Kate the simple, too-obvious fact that it didn't do any good to think such thoughts.

"These thoughts, they don't make you feel good, do they? And your situation certainly isn't going to change, so it doesn't do you any good, does it Kate?" Teacher was always so clear in his explanations, everything so darn unarguable.

"Well, no sir," Kate answered simply. But a frown broke involuntarily over Kate's lips, the kind that came even when ever effort was being made to behave, to accept.

"Kate, your thoughts are not APPROPRIATE for a proper young lady. You are a pretty, well spoken girl with a very pleasing attitude most of the time. Now, I will see a happy smile on your face now-- frowns will give you wrinkles and don't do a thing for boys."

And so Kate smiled brightly, especially at the mention of boys. Boys, boys, boys. Everything was about boys and being appropriate. And there was the real desire to act appropriately and an all-the-time fear lurking deep down of boys NOT being attracted to Kate, Kate's smile, Kate's face, Kate's body, everything Kate.

And now it was the Time. That was why Kate felt so nervous, so flighty, so scared. Kate remembered a time when thinking wasn't so hard, so difficult. The drugs and hypnosis and physchological training and disciplining had all forced changes on Kate in the last eight months, robbing the subject of independence of thought or even trying to think.

"Pretty girls don't think-- they just smile, Kate. Understand?" the Teacher had told Kate, who replied with a big bright smile. Oh yes, Kate understood. Especially after a question had been asked. It had been a simple one-- "Why are you doing this to me?" and the answer had been an injection. Hours later, Kate awoke nervous and silly and without any thought other than to NEVER, EVER to ask a question like that again.

After that, the rest seemed to come in a rush. The dressing lessons, the make-up lessons, the manners lessons, the hygiene training, the constant body-shaping aerobics exercising, and all the rest. All of it was accepted without questioning of any kind by Kate. Questions would mean big words, big thoughts that weren't appropriate for a girl like Kate.

There were conversations, though. With the Teacher. He would ask questions and the answers would seem to spring out of Kate's mouth, words that came so easily that they seemed to be put there by the Teacher himself. And once Kate had dreamed that there were words that broke the silence of sleeptime, words that Kate would use when awake. But that must have been a dream indeed.

"Do you like math, Kate?" the Teacher would ask.

Kate would cast eyes down, smile foolishly. The auburn mane would shake "no" and Kate would giggle. "Math is just for boys, Sir."

"Do you like sports, Kate?" The voice was so calm, so reassuring. Kate always knew when the right answers were coming out.

Again, the long auburn hair shaking. "Sports are so icky, Sir!"

"But I bet sports interest you a little, doesn't it Kate?"

Kate grinned. "Football is fun-- to watch, I mean. Not to play. Football players are so handsome." Was that answer right?

The Teacher smiled. "But you wouldn't like to play football, would you Kate?"

A vapid giggle and a shake of that straight long lustrous auburn hair.

"What would you like to do, Kate?" the voice asked curiously.

Kate folded the small hands, unconsciously checking the pink polish of the three inch nails. "Well, Sir, I would like to make myself pretty with the makeup you gave me and bake cookies for boys, just like I learned."

The Teacher patted the auburn hair and Kate knew that the right answer was given. "Of course you would my dear, and so you shall."

There were more conversations like that. As the weeks went on, Kate learned what were the right answers and what were the wrong answers. Also learned were the things that mattered most-- like keeping nails polished, keeping dress hems from rising too high, to keeping hair arranged perfectly. Learning when to smile brightly and when to listen respectfully. Discovering how to walk like a lady in the high heels Kate was given, careful always to walk by swinging the hips, not bending the knees. How to keep arms up and always away from the body. Oh, it was all so very important, the Teacher said. Otherwise, people would be so disappointed in pretty Kate and we wouldn't want that would we?

Oh, no, Kate mused, I know I wouldn't want that! Because when Kate didn't give the right answer, it didn't take the Teacher long at all to take Kate over his knee. The teenager hated waiting while he yanked up the skirt and peeled down the panties. It seemed to take forever as he raised his hand and then let it fall hard and fast on Kate's bare smooth butt. The number of spanks depended on just how wrong Kate's answer was. At first, the answers were painfully wrong. But after awhile, Kate learned, really learned, to give the right answers.

Because you couldn't just pretend to give the right answer. The Teacher seemed to know just what was in Kate's head (again those voices at night drifting in and out in the dark!) and if the right answer wasn't given without so much a second's hesitation, gosh, Kate was soon looking at the floor as the Teacher began "correction."

Oh, but the bell was ringing, the little tinkling bell outside. Kate had to hurry, to make sure everything was right. The First Time was ever so important, the Teacher said! Kate nervously checked the legs and underarms for hairs missed in shaving, the eyebrow not perfectly straight, the uneven patch of too-dry skin. Oh, it was maddening, all the details you needed to be aware of when you were a teenage girl! Especially for the First Time! And gosh, when you had been a boy to start with, it took extra work, like the Teacher said!

Downstairs, in another part of the Teacher's gracious suburban home, two men spoke. One, a distinguished looking man of perhaps fifty smoked a pipe and thoughtfully listened to his guest. He wore an expensive well-worn herringbone jacket which he frequently investigated for more pipe tobacco. The man speaking was handsome, thirty, and in a good mood. From his casual dress, well-defined physique and confident demeanor, he might have passed for a polite bouncer at a successful and upscale nightclub.

"So," the younger man continued, flexing an arm, "the subject is prepared to your satisfaction?"

The older man grinned reassuringly. He nodded, the pipe never leaving his mouth.

"I see. Well, tell me, what should I look for in terms of problems or deviations from what you said I should expect?" The younger man pressed, deliberately if delicately. His numerous negotiations in Asia had taught him the necessity of bringing up all details before closing a deal.

The older man hooked his thumbs into the lapels of the English herringbone. He liked to wear it in the late afternoons in the Fall on days like this. It was a pleasure wearing a jacket like this. Maybe that's why it seemed so appropriate to what he did. Looking in the other man's eyes, he answered the question for the hundredth time. He could calm all their fears by now by patiently explanation almost by rote.

"Well," he began slowly, "Kate has been disabused of any notion that 'she' is a boy. The chastity belt allows her to relieve herself, but doesn't allow for arousal. This will cause her pain as I suspect arousal will occur at some future time," he skipped over this as a feral gleam escaped from his guests eyes, "but she will learn to accommodate it."

"How?" demanded the guest sharply. All questions must be answered.

"Why, through three factors, actually. First, pharmacologically, her body chemistry has been altered. This was necessary in order to begin the growth of her breasts. There is now more estrogen that testosterone in the blood mix and she is now capable of generating her own estrogen rather than injections. This alteration will stymie penile arousal while igniting the physchological factor."

"Which is?"

"Which-" he paused, clearly perturbed by being interrupted and showing so," has been implanted through neural nets and hypno- physchosis. These processes have supplanted many natural impulses and behavior vis a vis the male and female gender. Kate's value system has been rearranged so to speak, the blocks of values previously held now in a different pattern, this having been effected through the nets and hypno-processes."

Rather than interrupt again, the younger man shook his head in confusion.

The older man smiled. "All this means," he waved his hands as if to wave away the confusion, "is that whereas eight months ago Kate was a boy, with all the natural inclinations and desires of a fifteen year old boy, he is now she, a sixteen year old girl-- with all the inhibitions and feelings of a teenage girl."

"All?" pressed the other with a wicked smile.

"Oh, yes. Well, most. It is impossible to erase all the male identity. But that is why the Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs is such an important concept for you to understand in this regard. You're familiar with it?"

The man scratched his head. "I can tell you the price of microchips in Singapore, but I confess, it has been awhile since I was back here at Elgin, sir. I don't recall what it is, but it sounds familiar."

The older man's eyes rolled in disappointment. "We take such care in devising this curriculum for you boys, but--ah, well! Maslow was a clinical physchologist who discovered that within each of us is a series of needs which we need to satisfy on our way to self-actualization, a term which basically means complete satisfaction with our existence.

The basics are, as you would expect, food, shelter, clothing, and the like. Next comes what we would think of as physical pleasure, then wealth and power and so forth. Well, in Kate's mind we have displaced the importance of female values with that of male values. She now values female values as basic survival values but is attracted toward male attributes in order to self- actualize. Understand now?"

The quizzical look on the younger man's face was the silent reply.

"Very simple, you see. Kate finds absolutely none of the mystery she used to find in things she has been trained to think are female-- things like beauty, grace, the desire to please, the urge to attract. Those things are lower values, essentially the price she pays for being what she is now-- the price of admission."

Comprehension dawned quickly on the business executive's face and he nodded for the academic to continue.

"What she secretly longs for and values are what she has been taught are male attributes-- strength, confidence and sureness of purpose, even selfishness."

"So she what you're saying, if I get it, is that Kate isn't some prima donna beauty queen now, right?"

"Oh, far from it! She's attractive, to be sure, but she doesn't perceive her beauty to have any value in isolation from a male. None of what she has to offer has any value without a male to please with her charms."

"And there isn't any boy left in her?"

"There will be a marginal amount, but that is where the third factor comes into play."

The man gestured with his finger. "I was going to ask you about the third. Aren't the first two sufficient?"

The Headmaster's eyes widened. "I haven't educated and trained juveniles this long without discovering that old fashioned discipline works as many wonders as modern physchology and medicine!"

"Very good, I see," replied the guest. "Well, that takes care of the subject's physical, emotional and mental well-being. What about the legal implications of all this?"

The Headmaster handed him a sheaf of papers in a manila folder, which his guest slowly paged through as the older man explained.

"The subject is a scholarship student whom the Academy took on as part of a program with the local authorities. The subject has no known family, had been hosted by a number of foster homes, and was dangerously close to being remanded to a county facility for juvenile delinquents, when accepted here. As a result, the subject was placed under the legal auspices of the Academy. The subject was delighted to be here." The older man smiled archly. "No surprise there, of course. Were you aware that this is one of the most exclusive boy's preparatory schools in the nation? We can count seven presidents who prepped here and our scholastic achievements are too numerous to mention. Why our SAT average--"

The younger man cut him off. "Sir, with all due respect, you forget I prepped here. I am well aware of the Academy's well- deserved reputation. Please, please just continue," he added smiling.

The older man shrugged. One of the problems of dealing with youngsters all day was that you could easily forget how to deal with adults! He chuckled. "Of course, of course. My apologies!  Anyway, it was reported back to the proper county offices and social workers that the subject was not fitting in well, that in deed, was causing difficulties for our other students. Naturally, the social worker who came to investigate the subject's disappearance was quite disgusted. When given the chance to get a first-class education all on scholarship, without the county having to spend a dime, the fact the subject ran away was enough to put the whole program into question."

The younger man was taken aback. "Then you've canceled the program to take these students on scholarship?"

"Not at all," the older man reassured him. "I reluctantly agreed to continue the program, which delighted the social worker to no end. Do you know that the county spends over thirty thousand dollars a year to-- ah, but I am digressing. Back to the point. Yes, the program continues, but now only under the condition that the Academy not be plagued by constant visits from the Social Services Office or regular reports. Elgin Academy graciously extended the program to accept these hardship students under the condition that the only nuisance the county be allowed to ask for is a copy of the subject's diploma upon graduation."

The younger man chuckled. "Well, how very convenient, Headmaster. And how very profitable!"

The older man smiled in shared confidence. "Isn't it, though? And with regard to that, I must thank you for your kind contribution." A grateful hand was offered, which the executive took.

"Say, Headmaster, could you turn on the monitor in Kate's room like you did the last time I was here?" There was a slight jump in his deep voice as he made the request. Like a kid taking a peek at a Christmas present, he thought in guilty excitement.

The prep school headmaster nodded indulgently. "By all means. Let us see what the dear is up to." He pulled a key from his jacket pocket and unlocked the door of the wallmounted wood cabinet behind him. The opened door revealed a dark monitor. the academic punched in a code on the monitor console and the monitor expanded into a technicolor square.

"She's so damn cute!" The businessman looked at the small figure on the screen with rapt attention. "And she's got a figure now-- that was just starting the last time I was here!"

"Yes, Kate is filling out. As I've said before, she won't ever be a Dolly Parton. In fact, what she's got is probably all she'll ever have, though I haven't had the heart to break it to her. Funny, that. At first, she required quite a bit of coaxing to get her to wear her training bra. She was so-- obstreperous. 'Why do I have to wear a bra?', 'I don't like having breasts', 'I'm really a boy' and all the rest. So ridiculous. But in time, she's accepted them, more than that I would say! She's been measuring herself every day, becoming ecstatic if she grew a micrometer! Always reading articles in her copies of Sassy and Seventeen about breast size and so forth. Look at her-- even now, she's obsessed with them!"

The screen gave a clear view of what the Headmaster was referring to. Kate cupped her small breasts, lifting them and looking at herself in the mirror. Then she dropped her hands and thrust her chest out like a cadet, an unsatisfied look on her face.

"So damn cute!" repeated the younger man roughly. Then, recovering himself a bit, turned to the Headmaster. "Sort of looks like Jodie Foster, don't you think?" He asked the question self-consciously, almost self-congratulatory.

"Of course she does, Edgar. After all, that's what you told me you wanted in a niece-- a thin redhead with a pale complexion, sharp pretty features, slim hips, small breasts-- all you asked for. I believe you mentioned Jodie Foster as Kate's physical model, did you not?"

"Yeah, well I think you're right." The younger man's eyes narrowed. "Quite a babe that Jodie Foster. Anyway, what has she been told again?"

"That her uncle is coming for her today and he wants to see how much his niece has developed. That the last time you set eyes on her, she was very, very young. That her long-lost uncle is a very successful businessman who works in Asia. And that if she is 'mature' enough, you'll take her with you when you go back to Asia."

The exec's eyes were fixed on the feminine figure primping on the monitor. "It'll be wonderful to take her over there. The life of an expatriate is a lonely one and as I mentioned, the AIDS epidemic is getting quite virulent. It was obvious to me some eight months ago that the usual company with which I indulged myself was just getting too dangerous. Risky. Still," his brow creased, "to be honest, even now I wonder if a real girl wasn't the way to go."

Headmaster shook his head. "Too expensive, even for you, Edgar. Besides, I'm sure she please you-- except for the genital switch, there's not a lot of difference now. And girls are far more difficult to train. Besides this way you're helping your alma mater. Your 'contribution' pays off in two ways-- it is tax- deductible plus you enjoy the benefit of a pretty, well-bred young companion. How else can you both save yourself a great deal of money, make our library expansion possible and gain such a delightful traveling partner?" He pointed at the monitor with his pipe.

Edgar looked sheepish. "I'm so pleased to help the Academy. The library needed the new wing, Headmaster. I'm honored to be a part of the continuing success of the school. And delighted to be part of your special extracurricular program, sir."

The academic pulled on his herringbone lapels and smiled broadly. "Anything for an alum of old Elgin! You know this program has done wonders for our fundraising. It is because of such supporters like you that our special education program works so well. Do you remember your classmate John Worthington?"

The younger man nodded. "Good old Jack! How is he? I heard he's the youngest ambassador ever appointed to France!"

"Oh yes, we're quite proud of him at Elgin, as we are of you-- I saw you on the cover of BusinessWeek touting you as the country's hottest portfolio manager in the Far East. Anyway, John is going to France and along with his wife and young son, he is bringing along a nanny, a certain young lady of seventeen named Samantha."

The guest tried to trap a chuckle with his hand. "You're not suggesting old Jack--"

The Headmaster smiled in amusement. "Let's just say Samantha, a lovely brown-haired thing, used to be a young street ruffian named Sammy or something! Too bad we can't 'help' more of our former students this way, the school needs so much work."

"Why not simply ask more alums if they'd be interested?"

The Headmaster shook his head. "Believe it or not Edgar, most tastes run to the rather ordinary. It takes a very special person to appreciate a delicacy like Katie or Samantha. And the gymnasium does need so much repair. I think our basketball team can have such a superlative season. Ah, but funds are lacking!"

Edgar shrugged. "How much would you need to do a complete repair?"

The older man scratched his graying head. "Perhaps two million-- at least one."

Edgar smiled widely. "If Katie is half of what you promise she'll be, I think we can find that money, Headmaster!"

"But Edgar, are you offering to donate--???"

"Please sir, I'm successful, but not that successful. However I have an idea. I'll call you next year-- by that time I'll know if it's feasible." On that mysterious note, the guest turned intently on the older man. "I'd like to see what I have bought now, if that's all right."

The Headmaster nodded and pushed a button at his desk. Upstairs Kate heard the bell again, loud and insistent. "To let her know her 'uncle' is coming up to see her," the Headmaster explained.

As the two men approached the small locked door, the Headmaster pressed some small items into the other man's hands. He put his hand on the other man's arm, the powerful biceps bulging under the casual sports jacket.

"I'll let you two get acquainted. She's dressed precisely as you wished-- a pleasant deviation from the usual norm, I must say. Take as long as you like of course, then she can dress. Her bags are packed and you can leave with her any time you like. If you have any problems, contact me at once." The headmaster gave him an understanding smile. "The initial training can be sticky, but she is waiting for you. And as much as she is afraid of you-- and will probably continue to be-- she is just as secretly excited about being your 'niece' and everything that goes with it. Good luck old man, and see you at Homecoming next year." With that, the older man walked down the stairs.

The younger man looked at the items in his palm. There were two. One was a square plastic package that was labeled "Stud Condom-- Ribbed For Extra Pleasure". The other was a tiny key with a small tab. It read simply "Kate." He placed the key carefully on his keychain, then opened the door.

Kate stood facing him, head bowed but green eyes looking anxiously at him. Her hands and arms nervously covered her chest, then with a forced jitter, dropped to her side, exposing her blue cotton brassiered chest. She chewed her lower lip, then with a supreme effort, smiled sweetly for her guest.

"Hello, Uncle Edgar. I'm so glad to see you." The words were offered like a gift that the giver knew, just knew, wasn't good enough, but had to try anyway.

Uncle Edgar closed the door behind him and gestured for Kate to approach him. With head bowed, she carefully walked over to present herself to him, her hips swaying slightly, her hands raised and away from her hips.

"Aren't you going to give your Uncle a big kiss when I've come from so very far away to see my pretty niece?" he chided her.

She smiled brightly at the compliment then and hoped, just hoped that she would never ever make her new uncle mad. He seemed so handsome and so nice. She threw her thin arms up and around his broad shoulders as best she could (he was so tall!) and, closing her eyes as taught, offered the red painted pouting lips up for him to take as he wished. And even as she had hoped it would all be nice for the First Time she met HIM, she felt his hands roughly reach down and squeeze her butt hard, then cup her little breasts. And she was afraid, afraid even though deep in her beating heart she felt a new warm and dark thrill flowering. This wouldn't be the kind of First Time she had expected at all, as he pressed her down to her knees. She thought, this is a different kind of First Time, even as he placed her hands on his thighs and forced the pink nailed fingers around his trouser zipper. And years later, even after her Uncle Edgar had taught her so much more, when she thought back to the First Time, Kate would shiver in terror and delight.

 


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